God ended a lot of friendships and toxic relationships that I wanted to keep forever. At first I didn’t understand, now I’m like: Thank God.
One thing I am very aware of especially as I get older is how people’s energy affects me. Pay close attention because some of the most toxic energy comes from people we love, think love us, those who calls us friends or lovers.
There is a lot of jealous people out there that try to conceal it by pretending to care about you and letting your walls down and opening up to them. When you aren’t around will judge you and tell others about your business. There is a part of you that can sense they are shady but cannot prove it. This gut reaction/feeling is enough for you to cut this connection off. From my personal experience I always give people the benefit of the doubt but they usually always disappoint me. I am disappointed but at the same time knew I should have listened to that inner voice.
Sometimes you are so blinded by love that you go against this feeling and continually give this person another chance after chance until your soul cannot take it anymore. I have been in relationships when I should have walked away so long ago but I didn’t want to face the fact they were not right for me, ready for me or not healthy for me. I tend to put others first to the cost of my own peace.
Then you have the friends that thrive off the fact you are suffering because they get a sense they are doing better than you. They will cover this by building you up but at the same time be condescending. Watch out for these friends because they can be the most toxic of all. You only know they are toxic after they have been there for some time.
Always put yourself first, you are number one. The relationship with yourself is the most important one you’ll have in this lifetime. As we know and keep getting reminded in 2020: Life is too short and full of surprises. You shouldn’t be spending anytime wasted on people that don’t make you feel happy. I hope you are keeping safe and that this is a time of great reflection. Reflect on yourself and the people you are surrounded by.