I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet throughout this year. I have been processing a lot throughout this year. 2019 was a year of a lot of lessons, hard lessons. And I’m still trying to turn these experiences in a positive way.
One of the hard lessons has taught me that some people don’t deserve second chances. When they show you the first time who they are, believe them. I’ve learned that people’s actions towards you is just a reflection of who they are and have nothing to do with you. I don’t ever regret giving others the best of me. It’s a reminder that I am rooted in love. There are a lot of hurting people out there. So I say to anyone that has ever hurt me, especially this year: LOVE YOURSELF.
The second lesson I learned is that everyone is going through a journey and sometimes they have to journey on their own in order to add better for the future. Some say it’s painful to wait for someone. Some say it’s painful to forget someone. But the worst pain comes when you don’t know whether to wait or forget. But I say move forward: What’s meant for you will always be yours no matter how much you have wondered. Sometimes bad things happen in order to make room for better things to come. Be thankful for your journey because you never know what god is blocking you from. Pray that people you love and care for find their way and their happiness.
2019 was a test of patience for me and a year to learn how to be alone. I am stronger for it. I am happier living moment to moment and putting my energy into myself. When I was 25-29 I found myself in a sense of panic to figure everything out and do what I was “suppose” to be doing. 2019 I turned 30 and I just feel an overall sense of calm. Being happy and content is more important than anything. I am no longer concerned about others opinions. People can only judge/form opinions from their personal experiences, biases and their limited understanding of something YOU are growing through.
Life doesn’t get any easier. There will always be experiences that will break your heart but can change your outlook into something better. I always strive to see the good in everything no matter how lost, sad or defeated I feel. I choose light, life and love always. 2020 is here, another 365 days, all of which can (and will) be beautiful (as long as you choose to see it).