Goodbye 2019

I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet throughout this year. I have been processing a lot throughout this year. 2019 was a year of a lot of lessons, hard lessons. And I’m still trying to turn these experiences in a positive way. 

One of the hard lessons has taught me that some people don’t deserve second chances. When they show you the first time who they are, believe them. I’ve learned that people’s actions towards you is just a reflection of who they are and have nothing to do with you. I don’t ever regret giving others the best of me. It’s a reminder that I am rooted in love. There are a lot of hurting people out there. So I say to anyone that has ever hurt me, especially this year: LOVE YOURSELF.

The second lesson I learned is that everyone is going through a journey and sometimes they have to journey on their own in order to add better for the future. Some say it’s painful to wait for someone. Some say it’s painful to forget someone. But the worst pain comes when you don’t know whether to wait or forget. But I say move forward: What’s meant for you will always be yours no matter how much you have wondered. Sometimes bad things happen in order to make room for better things to come. Be thankful for your journey because you never know what god is blocking you from. Pray that people you love and care for find their way and their happiness.

2019 was a test of patience for me and a year to learn how to be alone. I am stronger for it. I am happier living moment to moment and putting my energy into myself. When I was 25-29 I found myself in a sense of panic to figure everything out and do what I was “suppose” to be doing. 2019 I turned 30 and I just feel an overall sense of calm. Being happy and content is more important than anything. I am no longer concerned about others opinions. People can only judge/form opinions from their personal experiences, biases and their limited understanding of something YOU are growing through. 

Life doesn’t get any easier. There will always be experiences that will break your heart but can change your outlook into something better. I always strive to see the good in everything no matter how lost, sad or defeated I feel. I choose light, life and love always. 2020 is here, another 365 days, all of which can (and will) be beautiful (as long as you choose to see it).

Videography: @infinitemovements // Photography: @withmayreese // Hair: @styledbynadia // Makeup: @jess.wolfert.makeup

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6 Comments

  1. Vivian
    December 30, 2019 / 12:45 am

    This is wonderful love! I wish you nothing but an amazing end of the decade and all the best wishes to a new decade! 💗🥰 happy sunday babe!

  2. December 30, 2019 / 11:59 am

    This is so accurate, totally agree. If people can’t love themselves and you sense it. Run. Something better is always out there. Just a matter of time and you are so strong for being patient babe! Looking beautiful as always. Love you!

  3. Ariane Lacho
    December 30, 2019 / 2:10 pm

    30 is the new 20 baby!! Plus it helps that asians look young no matter what age. Wishing you all the best in the new year. Xoxo

  4. Carrie
    December 30, 2019 / 4:01 pm

    I really enjoy reading this! Happy 2020 and have the best year babe 🙂

  5. Winnie
    December 31, 2019 / 3:20 pm

    This is so beautifully written babe. I know you have grown so much this year and I know 2020 will bring you nothing but the best! Cheers to a brand new decade of new goals, love, good health and happiness!

  6. December 31, 2019 / 6:29 pm

    Self-love ♡
    You are strong and beautiful and I’m grateful to call you my friend xo
    Here’s to 2020!